Much like last week's post by KL, I've recently gone through some soul searching myself. Am I on the right track with my writing? Am I being selfish in demanding time to devote to my passion at the expense of my family? Is my being an author on God's radar?
Tough questions, even tougher to actually face. So, I set out on a journey of self-discovery, of sorts. A temporary job opportunity plopped itself on my lap offering to let me be a fill-in secretary for our 4-H organization. Now, if you know me at all, I love 4-H and can spend an entire blog itself on just that topic. But that's not my mission today, so you'll have to tune in again : )
The challenges of being in the workplace again were very stimulating. I had tasks to perform under deadline, the public to greet with constant humor, and generally easing back into the working world. I loved my days, but I came home exhausted. Too exhausted to write. This concerned me. How was I to do God's bidding, if indeed He intended to make me a published author, if I didn't write?
I prayed, but didn't hear an answer.
Four months later, our regular secretary decided to retire, so I was offered the position permanently. Talk about a bizarre mix of excitement and apprehension! Lord, what will You have me do??
Again, silence on the line.
Well, I accepted the position and focused on being the best Administrative Assistant I could be. I learned a lot. I worked a lot. I laughed a lot. I didn't really try to wedge writing into my already full life -- oh did I mention my husband owns a painting company for which I continue to also secretary, and we have two teenagers, one graduated this last May and is in college?
My prayer life filled to capacity.
I neglected my writing duties. I felt badly, but you know what? I also found out who my friends were.
Take a moment and visit Seekerville http://seekerville.blogspot.com and meet 14 of the most giving ladies to ever create a blog (I'm the 15th, hee). Fine advice and humor abound with the ladies of Seekerville and I find myself most fortunate they love me even when I go MIA.
Then, of course, you've already found the Five Scribes home and met the ladies who also love me as they sprinkle words of wisdom across blog pages about the Ups and Downs of the writing world. Leslie Ann, Donnell, Theresa, Kerri-Leigh and MIA-me, do our best to shed light on fiction and screenwriting across genres.
Both blogs are exceptional and vividly illuminate the trials and triumphs of the writer's life. Anyway, along this journey, God did speak to my heart and He did assure me I had something to write about. Who am I to argue when He graciously provides the story??
So, now I've reaffirmed my marriage vows to God and my writing. I've too many thoughts and book reviews to share. Come back again, and often, and share moral support whenever the good Lord moves you : )
Blessing to you all!!!